So many people look at me, what I’ve accomplished and the titles I hold and draw conclusions about me based on those factors without getting to know me for who I am. YES, I have a PhD; YES, I’m an ordained pastor; YES, I’m anointed and that anointing comes with a price. However, there’s one thing that many fail to remember – that I’M HUMAN!!!! Just like you! The only difference is how I choose to live my life.
I remember the day I got saved like it was yesterday although it was 24 years ago. Regardless of what people think of me good or bad – I’m not perfect. However, since the day I got saved I have been committed to my Christian walk and since the day I was called 21 years ago I have been committed to the call and anointing on my life. I love God so much and it is my responsibility to safeguard that which God has entrusted in me. Yes, this anointing is costly.
No, I don’t have a story of God delivering me from drugs, sex, and alcohol. In fact, He spared me from getting caught up in those cycles. However, drinking is not the sin, the sin is in being drunk and for all your inquiring minds on rare occasions I might have a glass of wine. I remember being a teenager and a pastor telling me that I didn’t belong in the world and if I ever tried to fit in it wouldn’t work. Truth is, I’ve never been the one to go with the crowd whether the one trying to impact the crowd. That’s the price of the anointing.
The anointing comes with a sacrifice. That sacrifice first comes with laying self aside. Not forgetting about myself but putting others first because I have an assignment and those assigned to my hands need me to be in place and ready when our paths cross so that I can effectively minister to them what God put in me to deposit in them. The cost of the anointing means I gave up my freedom to do what I wanted to do. I realized at an early age that it wasn’t about me and I was called with a holy calling that requires me to surrender to will to God for my life. The anointing leads me to meet many people from all walks of life all over the world. Yet those I hold closest to my heart are few for I know and the Savior knows that they will help me to protect the gift in me, build me up and pray for me. The cost of the anointing means walking this journey with many along the path but only a few that actually walk it out with me.
There’s a lot of things I’ve never done, many experiences of life I was able to escape. At the same time, just like you, I’m human and life happens. I’m an emotional being who feels the hurt of my loved ones when they hurt. I have my own emotions that I deal with and although it may be a surprise to you I get mad and sometimes my blood boils from being so upset. Yet the anointing causes me to evaluate my emotions and not be/act in my feelings. See I realized that there are people looking at me and watching me whose name I may never know and face I will never see. YET God in His divine wisdom saw fit to connect us somehow. For that reason, I’m careful about what I do, careful about what I say and no matter where I am or what I’m doing I reflect Jesus Christ. No, I’m perfect. Sometimes I miss the mark. However, the anointing on my life is real. I don’t take it for granted. I respect myself, the call and the anointing to fulfill the call. So you may not understand why I do what I do or the decisions I make. To be honest with you, sometimes I don’t either. Yet, I know that God is with me. Leading me, guiding me, directing me and teaching me His ways.
So I gladly lay down myself, pick up my cross, and march forward all for the sake of Jesus Christ. The anointing is costly. In fact, it cost me my life. A life yielded to Christ. One where I’m transparent and not afraid to admit my wrongs or repent to the God of my salvation. I’m so grateful that He’s faithful and just to forgive me of my sins and that when He called me that calling was holy and He has positioned me in the Kingdom as He see fit.